Does the Book of Revelation Mesh with Jesus’ Teachings? — Carolyne Cathey
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Warning: My beliefs as guided by Jesus my Spiritual Mentor might be considered by some as heretical. This is where courage and faith comes in, when what the Divine communicates is the opposite of what many others believe as truth. What is my reaction to the Book of Revelation claim that Jesus will come again […]
via Does the Book of Revelation Mesh with Jesus’ Teachings? — Carolyne Cathey
TRUTH 
April 10, 2020 at 8:02 pm
Hey truth. How are you doing with all this going on?
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April 10, 2020 at 8:23 pm
Thank you, we’re doing good. Blessed. A bit rebellious on not supposed to be attending church on Easter Sunday. But rebellious enough? We’ll see
How are you doing through all of this? Still determined for the best life possible for you? Home? Work? Daughter?
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May 16, 2020 at 4:09 pm
That’s a tough decision. It’s been ups and downs I’m talking to my daughter more and getting alone with her mother. I’m mostly positive and watch my tongue. If it’s not something positive or nice then I won’t say it. I try to honestly look and try empathy or look at others and see if I’d like that, but I’ve failed too and have been rude to my mother. I have resentments towards her. I’ve been a fucking dick and I’ve made her cry. That makes me feel like shit and I can’t imagine what she’s feeling besides me being a terrible son. As for work. I’m still working but not as an Emt due to the virus. Works day by day and how it is. I’m still talking to members from aa and church and seeing a counselor. Learning to save and knocking out bills. I challenge myself when I do get upset. It’s me vs me and seeing why I get upset. My insecurities and mindset. Hope all is well
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May 16, 2020 at 5:25 pm
So glad to hear from you. You are moving forward, which is the perfect direction. Rarely is improvement accomplished without some back steps and mistakes along the way. What you are doing is not easy, but with determination, doable. You can and are doing this.
As to your mother, apologize. Might she have contributed to your issues when you were a child? Be honest with her. Open your heart. Tell her about your resentments, and why, and see if you can work together to release them, and hers, too. Tell her you are trying but that sometimes you get triggered and mess up. Ask for her understanding and her prayers. See what happens.
You said you try empathy. What does that mean? Is it pretend or real? In those instances, are you treating others the way you want to be treated? What happens when you are empathetic, both for you and others?
The times we are experiencing can make your transition more difficult. That means, if possible, get out in nature as much as possible. Hike. Listen to nature music. And most important, PRAY. PRAY. PRAY. All things are possible with God.
I believe in you. Jesus believes in you. Ask him for help, guidance and inner peace.
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May 16, 2020 at 4:32 pm
I’m going store crazy and dislike the feeling of being stuck. Just stagnant
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May 16, 2020 at 5:07 pm
You and millions of people, including me. In fact, I’ve been struggling with anger, shocked at how easily people gained control and decimated our freedom through fear, guilt and threats. Personally, I’ve had enough. The millions of lives that have been damaged from loss of income must be restored. All lives matter. We must shift from living in fear to living in faith. Living means taking taking calculated and often bold risks.
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May 16, 2020 at 11:02 pm
How do we the people do that? Of course you have protest going on and I can see how the media played a big part. How come you’ve been angry? Is it just that?
As for empathetic I guess I really try to put myself in their shoes and see how I’d feel if that was done to me. Not sure if that is what empathy is. I can see why people react the way they act but it’s hard to feel that at times. I’m not sure if it’s real or not but it’s a different feeling/state of mind that I haven’t experienced. I’ve also been trying to change my thinking with black and white and see the good and bad in others. I’m more accepting and see that people have there own “normal” actions and that’s where they come from even if it’s different from my normal. When I think before I act. It helps and I don’t react as I use to and sometimes I don’t know how to react and I’ll be quiet in the moment. Like I said prior it’s a raw feeling and I haven’t felt that before. I’ve been digging into sociopathy and I guess what drives me to wanting a life different from that is my daughter saying that I’m her best friend. She makes me happy and I do worry about her. I don’t want to be the man I am. She deserves better. My whole family does. I owe it to myself.
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May 17, 2020 at 12:20 am
What you expressed in this post is heart-warming. It’s truly beautiful. I sense hardened layers of you dissolving to expose the wonderful you that you really are.
What your daughter expressed? WOW. A treasure. She deserves your best. I believe that is what you are striving to offer her. She sees in you what you might not yet see in yourself.
By the way, I’m proud of you for continuing AA and your anger management counseling.
You are expanding into the real, magnificent you faster than expected. Good job. To celebrate, when possible, maybe you could bring your daughter some flowers and take her to do something she would enjoy. Maybe even some flowers for your mom when times allow.
Thanks for your honest insight.
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May 17, 2020 at 8:56 pm
I will thanks for the positive encouraging words. Today was a good day. Nothing crazy but since I live with my parents I’m trying to be more helpful and less self absorbed and defensive. I asked her to teach me how to cook. I cook my own things but she cooks the traditional Mexican food. Been reading the Bible more as well and it’s been good. My biggest struggle lately is trust with others and also struggling with porn. My daughter lives in another state but she could have a genetic immune disorder. Just like her mother. So we are postponing the trip til further notice. How was your day? How’s all this impacted you?
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May 26, 2020 at 1:01 pm
You revealed some positive movement in your life! Cooking and learning new recipes is a creative form of healing. Instant results from your efforts that rewards you with good food and often good times.
Learning to trust others is challenging. The important beginning is learning to trust God, and to trust yourself within God.
Porn is also a challenge. What do you get from porn that you feel you need? Is it dominance? We are all given a drive for loving a special person. When you don’t have an outlet for that drive, it can lure you into other, unhealthy releases. You might consider what you get from it other than the obvious and perhaps determine if it is feeding a weakness within you instead of a God-strength. What is important is making sure that what you watch isn’t an action of abusing someone, stealing their freedom, a child, a kidnap victim, a type of sex slave. Any sexual act against an unwilling partner is a form of rape, of mind, body and soul. Sexual force is toxic to the viewer as well as the ones performing the act. Sex, too, is treating someone as you wish to be treated, and that means no force, no stealing other’s choices, no rape, no enslavement. You might even feel pity for the ones involved. Why do they feel the need to be on public display? What is lacking in their lives that they are trying to fill in less than healthy ways? A lot of these actors are looking for love, to be noticed, to be appreciated. There are better means of receiving those basic needs than allowing themselves to be used in a degrading porn show. These are concepts to consider.
Congratulations on reading the Bible. Amazing wisdom is within the pages.
Let me know how your cooking turns out. What a blessing to learn how to cook one of our favorite foods – Mexican – from an expert.
By the way, have you surrendered yet to Jesus, asking him to co-partner with you as your teammate? Remember, surrender is nothing to fear. It’s releasing all you are not – your fears and guilt – and giving them to God, emptying yourself of what is not true, to make room for all of God’s love, and guidance, and wisdom. Anything other than Surrender is attempting to live a lie, because separation from God is impossible. Surrender is coming home.
God loves you now and always.
Truth
As to how I am coping, I’m blessed to have a long-time partner in marriage. We’ve dined out a couple of times, and spent time in the parks. Living in faith and acting on that by getting out and doing things is a healing balm. Seeing others laughing, enjoying friends and having a good time makes me feel good, too. So glad we are getting back to living our freedom.
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May 27, 2020 at 5:02 pm
From porn it’s usually watching milfs. Nothing like that where there is rape or children. I could never with that. As for what I get out of it. It’s a feeling good a release. I’ve always had the idea that a wife or gf would complete me and I know now that is not true. I’m pretty anti social and struggle with talking to others and come off as shy at times. Then I tend to warm up and talk and be myself. I have thought of why porn actors/actresses do that. I figured for men it’s something that they tend to want and get paid for it. As for women I thought they are just open with there sexual life and don’t mind. But maybe some do it for quick money and they probably are lured in by it. Maybe guidance or the lack of love from a parent or coming from a Broken home.
As for surrendering to god I’m still not sure what that looks like. I do think about how he would respond in situations that I’m in. Or to do what is morally right even though I may not want too. If that’s surrendering then little by little.
If not I do need help with an explanation of what’s surrendering may look like.
Last night my step dad drank and I was sitting there as he pushed his views on my mother and his mindset on her. Violating her feelings and opinions. How he think us the kids turned against him because of my mother. I’m sitting there analyzing the situation. Seeing my mom cry but still engaged in the conversation and my stepdad getting louder and louder. None of us step in anymore because we get scolded by my mother then our stepdad turns his focus on us. I see why she doesn’t want us involved because then he will argue with us. Especially me since I’m always to blame and not his son. We all see that my mom should leave him but she’s dependent on him. He gets her “things” when they’re actually meant for him. I don’t want that for me. I don’t want a stupid mask hiding my true intentions. I want my mindset to change. I have a daughter and I don’t want to be like my stepfather. I want to be genuinely loving. I watched a kid movie before when it spoke to me. The fox and the hound. That touched my heart and made me realize I lost my innocence long ago. As childish as it sound. I do have an idol and that’s captain America. Weird as it is. He’s self sacrificing. Dependable, honest and has his morals set on doing the right thing. For others. Never been able to enjoy anything til the end. At one point I trained to look like him and be like him. Crazy I know but if I can break my shell and drop who I use to be and give my life to help others. That would be the most accomplished life. That is my end goal. To have my body and mind in sync with the right morals. Apologies for the rant.
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May 27, 2020 at 5:07 pm
I use to almost always stand up to my stepdad as a child/ teen when he would argue with my mother or hit my younger siblings. I grew up being defiant and not trusting him. Also my mother because she would blame me for getting involved and even now. I do have authority issue. I couldn’t trust my mother and felt betrayed when I was sticking up for her.
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January 9, 2023 at 10:32 am
I’m checking in with you to see how you and your life is going. I’m so sorry for the abuse you experienced. Even though that abuse is not who you are, it still affects you. I pray you are also experiencing healing and inner peace. If not, there is a solution. Happy New Year!
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